Aha!

Ever feel like you’ve had that “aha” moment? Last night when I was cooking dinner, it just seemed like a light went on and everything suddenly became more clear. Sr was helping around the kitchen last night, and we were just talking away. I told him that everything just seems so different now, and it seems like its little things too. Take for instance, im enjoying cooking my food more. I don’t know if it was because I was doing more prepping, just cooking more fresh food or how colorful the food seems to be now, but I was really enjoying making dinner last night. Sr said things seem to be better because we don’t have so much processed food in our system, which is true. We haven’t had meat really since last Thursday maybe? So it seems like were lighter, and full of a different fuel. With drinking the detox tea, eating better and just having a different thought process it just seemed like life is finally becoming what it should be. I finally feel like I am where Im supposed to be in life and im surrounded by the people I need to be around. When I say I feel like im on a different level right now, I truly mean it.  I feel almost like im hovering above my physical self watching me in action. I was also talking with sr last night just reflecting over the past 8 years of our life together, and I was telling him how grateful I am for him. Weve  been through a lot of ups and downs, happy, sad and frustrating moments, and here we still stand, strong, happy and together. I hope that we can set an example of what real love is like for all of those wishing to have the same ,with understanding that its not all roses all the time. Ok so enough with all the mushy, deep stuff. Lol on to what I made last night!!!

                                Last night I made some tofu tacos!!! This was my first time using or making tofu. And I must say it came out so  good.  i had tofu when we went to the mongolian grill last week and it tasted like straight up cardboard, needless to say i was kinda skeptical about using tofu. But using this recipe it came out pretty good, the only thing i changed was i doubled the chili and cumin. other than that, last nights dinner was FIRE.

i ended up adding some refried beans to the equation since i had some pinto beans left over, and topped the actual tostadas with lettuce, tomatoes, avacado and taco cheese. Needless to say i am totally enjoying this new venture. 

i hope yall enjoy reading this since i do enjoy writing. and Jordan if youre reading, i love my little unmedicated world you should too. <3

bless yall

New to me...

This is a new year, and with the new year, normally brings resolutions, goals and blah blah blah.. well for me it brings a new way of thinking, new way of eating and a new way of acting.  Take for instance, i wrote last year about how i am having to unlearn alot of what i know, to realize things for what they are. With that new way of thinking, brings a new way of acting. I cant continue to react the way i used to when i was in my lower self, because that wasnt making things better only the same and sometimes worse. What is the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results?? Well that  was a the stage i was stuck in and obviously it  wasnt getting me any where. so in the process of becoming a better person and being in my higher self, my way of acting is something that needs to change as well. I like the results that im getting with my changes and growth. I may have a few slip ups to where i fall into my lower self, but thats part of growing right? 
Recently Sr and I have decided to cut alot if not all of the processed meat out of our diet. We went grocery shopping yesterday and got a whole lot of food minus the meat!!! Last night i made tofurkey wraps and cranoat cookies. i was turned onto them when we went to a vegan friends house. i can honestly say that the tofurkey in spinach wraps are one of the best and easiest things ive ever ate/made. I also made some cranoat cookies last night, that came from a vegan recipe. the werent "vegan" so to speak, since i had margarine already in the house but they still came out just as good. scratch that those cookies were good as hell. lol tonight i made a nice salad for sr and  had a wrap with lettuce, onion, green peppers, cream cheese and italian dressing. sounds weird but i ate that 3 hours ago and im still full. I think im going to like being a vegetarian. 
Heres to the new new.

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Happy New Year Good People

happy new year good people. i hope your new year has been all that you have made it so far. this was the first year in about 5 that we have not thrown a nye party, and you know what? it was a nice change to bring in the new year with. i think the  season with alot of those people who used to come has changed. and by change i dont mean that in a bad way, but the last party that i remember having the most fun at was at least 3 years ago. i love everyone that ive ever brought the new year in with, but im just in a different place in my life. this year i brought it in with people that i know i am supposed to be around for this period of my journey. im excited for 2013 and everything it brings. 

so im sitting in the bed typing this trying to get this child of mine to sleep, and i had to stop for a minute because my child just wanted to talk with me. he told me who all of his class mates are, what he had for lunch, what he does with his friend Quin in class and everything. like omg i just had a serious conversation with my two year old. lol hes getting so big, like when i look at him it makes my eyes water that he is so big now. like i miss my wittle baby. can you tell hes my only? as im typing this now, he was laying on my arm and told me to be

still.  lol what? who are you? smh. it just blows his mind to see how much hes grown. heres proof of my small 

beast i have. thats more than half my foot by the way. care to make donations to his show fund?

the times are changing...

Ive been doing some research/studying of thing like how to become more conscious of self, raise my vibrations, and how to open up my chakras. It seems like the more you work to better yourself, the more things work against you. Ive been writing every morning the things that i am grateful for and continuing to add to the list throughout the day. i started that yesterday and i felt my energy levels rise thus raising my vibration levels. it seemed like because my energy/vibrations were  so high, everyone else around was so negative or with low vibrations. I was reading how we need to unlearn everything we know because 9 times out of 10 its a lie and how 5/6th of our brain is the subconscious. it also said that the subconscious cant tell whats real vs fake and that's why we react to movies with the emotion we do, because it cant tell the difference between the two. After reading the info that i was reading, i became more aware of the things around me and the things i was thinking. yesterday my thoughts for the day were joy, gratefulness and peace. That was something that i focused on throughout the day, along with adding to my grateful list, and i swear i was happy and as good as can be.  even babe had to ask why i was so happy. it wasn't a matter of just being happy, it was being grateful for life and what i do have. just the list and the continued thoughts alone made my day better. when i cam home and was talking with Sr and my brother about is, my brother mentioned something to me. keep in mind that my brother is a moor and studies this diligently.  he said that because of the alignment of mars and Neptune, the energy is changing and people will be more aggressive and sexual until around jan 4th. on dec 21 the world didn't end but the age of a Pisces ended and we are now going in to the aquarian age. on that day, i swear to you, i felt the energy change, and just felt it within. i don't know if it is because i am a Pisces or what, but on that day i was just restless and felt like i needed more. upon doing my reading these past two days, i feel like i am slowly coming into self. like i was telling Sr earlier today when he asked why the sudden change or desire to learn and become more conscious. i told him that what Ive always been taught isn't working the way i want or think it should, so why not unlearn that and try a different approach to this thing called life. That's what its all about right? So here's to a new journey..

p.e.a.c.e.-- positive energy/education achieves constant elevation.

overwhelmed is the only way i can describe it.

Today of course is Christmas and  even though i really don't believe or follow this holiday or believe all the hype of it, i can honestly say that i am overwhelmed right now with all that has been provided to us this year. When our house got broken into on thanksgiving, some of my coworkers decided that they would be generous and do something like an angel tree for my son. If you're not familiar with angle tree, its something that the salvation army puts on for kids whose parents aren't able to provide as great of a Christmas as others.  I can honestly say that they went above and beyond for jr. Between the stuff that his grandparents sent and the stuff that my coworkers got, jr was overwhelmed with toys this morning. I have already told everyone at work how thankful we are for their help but i don't think they understand exactly how grateful i truly am. Every time i think about it my eyes get watery, just because i know that this year it was not going to be what most consider to be a decent Christmas. Money has been funny and there really hasn't been much for anything extra let alone some Christmas presents.  So to receive this voluntary help from others to help make my sons Christmas great was something that i call a blessing. Too often we get caught up in the holiday hype and worry ourselves about how we are going to get this and get that, instead of trying to help those that are less fortunate. This Christmas has been the most memorable one Ive had thus far, and i am going to make sure that i pay this forward. Please take a moment to be thankful for all that you DO have instead of what you DONT. If you get in the habit of finding joy in every situation, life wont seem as bad that way. If you celebrate this holiday, Merry Christmas, if you don't, have a wonderful day. Thank you for reading, be blessed.

home sick.

I was reading the news earlier today, and they were saying that omaha was under a winter weather advisory with a possible blizzard on the way. Now call me crazy if you want to, but i want to be home right now during this blizzard. Here in the ville, we havent even had a thought about snow. Its christmas time for goodness sake.  i was born and raised between colorado and nebraska so snow during this time of year is the norm for me. Last year here in the ville, we had a little bit of snow, but nothing that was even worth remembering. Now its dec 19 and there has been nothing but rain. In the words of my son "come on man, are you serious?" i need  snow im my life. tonight i wish i were in the blizzard with a fire place, my favorite blanket my granny made me and some wine. oh omaha, i miss thee.. 

im supposed to be folding laundry but...

so as I'm sitting here watching extreme home make over and as always, Ive been overcome with emotion. Just today we received a box full of presents from my parents for Jr. And Ive just realized how blessed we truly are. We are not what people consider rich, hell were living pay check to  pay check right now. And no matter what, each and every time, Sr and i seem to make things work. not only did this box have toys in it, but it also had clothes. and i just got to thinking how blessed we have truly been since having Jr. We are just now getting to the point where we have to buy him clothes and he is two. how many people can say they have gone two years with out having to buy their child clothes? And then we have such awesome parents that find such joy in buying things to where that helps out too. With all of the bad things going on in the world, it just seems so right to take the time an be thankful for what we do have instead of worrying about all that we don't. Something else that made me tear up was the thought of one of my coworkers and the act of kindness that she has decided to show. When we came home from my mother in laws house for thanksgiving, we came home to a house that had been ransacked and robbed. They didn't take much, considering we don't have much, but it did set us back a little bit. My coworker has taken it upon herself to make Christmas for Jr special too. She has gone out and bought him clothes, shoes and toys. now how many people you know would do that for a coworker? like i just had to take this moment to express how grateful i am for each and every blessing in our life.  thank you mom and dad for sending stuff for your grandchild, thank you cassidey for your kindness for my child. thank you to anyone that has ever helped us along the way, from the bottom of my heart, i appreciate you and i love you.  And thank you to whomever is reading my blog. I appreciate you too. 

bless