the times are changing...

Ive been doing some research/studying of thing like how to become more conscious of self, raise my vibrations, and how to open up my chakras. It seems like the more you work to better yourself, the more things work against you. Ive been writing every morning the things that i am grateful for and continuing to add to the list throughout the day. i started that yesterday and i felt my energy levels rise thus raising my vibration levels. it seemed like because my energy/vibrations were  so high, everyone else around was so negative or with low vibrations. I was reading how we need to unlearn everything we know because 9 times out of 10 its a lie and how 5/6th of our brain is the subconscious. it also said that the subconscious cant tell whats real vs fake and that's why we react to movies with the emotion we do, because it cant tell the difference between the two. After reading the info that i was reading, i became more aware of the things around me and the things i was thinking. yesterday my thoughts for the day were joy, gratefulness and peace. That was something that i focused on throughout the day, along with adding to my grateful list, and i swear i was happy and as good as can be.  even babe had to ask why i was so happy. it wasn't a matter of just being happy, it was being grateful for life and what i do have. just the list and the continued thoughts alone made my day better. when i cam home and was talking with Sr and my brother about is, my brother mentioned something to me. keep in mind that my brother is a moor and studies this diligently.  he said that because of the alignment of mars and Neptune, the energy is changing and people will be more aggressive and sexual until around jan 4th. on dec 21 the world didn't end but the age of a Pisces ended and we are now going in to the aquarian age. on that day, i swear to you, i felt the energy change, and just felt it within. i don't know if it is because i am a Pisces or what, but on that day i was just restless and felt like i needed more. upon doing my reading these past two days, i feel like i am slowly coming into self. like i was telling Sr earlier today when he asked why the sudden change or desire to learn and become more conscious. i told him that what Ive always been taught isn't working the way i want or think it should, so why not unlearn that and try a different approach to this thing called life. That's what its all about right? So here's to a new journey..

p.e.a.c.e.-- positive energy/education achieves constant elevation.

overwhelmed is the only way i can describe it.

Today of course is Christmas and  even though i really don't believe or follow this holiday or believe all the hype of it, i can honestly say that i am overwhelmed right now with all that has been provided to us this year. When our house got broken into on thanksgiving, some of my coworkers decided that they would be generous and do something like an angel tree for my son. If you're not familiar with angle tree, its something that the salvation army puts on for kids whose parents aren't able to provide as great of a Christmas as others.  I can honestly say that they went above and beyond for jr. Between the stuff that his grandparents sent and the stuff that my coworkers got, jr was overwhelmed with toys this morning. I have already told everyone at work how thankful we are for their help but i don't think they understand exactly how grateful i truly am. Every time i think about it my eyes get watery, just because i know that this year it was not going to be what most consider to be a decent Christmas. Money has been funny and there really hasn't been much for anything extra let alone some Christmas presents.  So to receive this voluntary help from others to help make my sons Christmas great was something that i call a blessing. Too often we get caught up in the holiday hype and worry ourselves about how we are going to get this and get that, instead of trying to help those that are less fortunate. This Christmas has been the most memorable one Ive had thus far, and i am going to make sure that i pay this forward. Please take a moment to be thankful for all that you DO have instead of what you DONT. If you get in the habit of finding joy in every situation, life wont seem as bad that way. If you celebrate this holiday, Merry Christmas, if you don't, have a wonderful day. Thank you for reading, be blessed.

home sick.

I was reading the news earlier today, and they were saying that omaha was under a winter weather advisory with a possible blizzard on the way. Now call me crazy if you want to, but i want to be home right now during this blizzard. Here in the ville, we havent even had a thought about snow. Its christmas time for goodness sake.  i was born and raised between colorado and nebraska so snow during this time of year is the norm for me. Last year here in the ville, we had a little bit of snow, but nothing that was even worth remembering. Now its dec 19 and there has been nothing but rain. In the words of my son "come on man, are you serious?" i need  snow im my life. tonight i wish i were in the blizzard with a fire place, my favorite blanket my granny made me and some wine. oh omaha, i miss thee.. 

im supposed to be folding laundry but...

so as I'm sitting here watching extreme home make over and as always, Ive been overcome with emotion. Just today we received a box full of presents from my parents for Jr. And Ive just realized how blessed we truly are. We are not what people consider rich, hell were living pay check to  pay check right now. And no matter what, each and every time, Sr and i seem to make things work. not only did this box have toys in it, but it also had clothes. and i just got to thinking how blessed we have truly been since having Jr. We are just now getting to the point where we have to buy him clothes and he is two. how many people can say they have gone two years with out having to buy their child clothes? And then we have such awesome parents that find such joy in buying things to where that helps out too. With all of the bad things going on in the world, it just seems so right to take the time an be thankful for what we do have instead of worrying about all that we don't. Something else that made me tear up was the thought of one of my coworkers and the act of kindness that she has decided to show. When we came home from my mother in laws house for thanksgiving, we came home to a house that had been ransacked and robbed. They didn't take much, considering we don't have much, but it did set us back a little bit. My coworker has taken it upon herself to make Christmas for Jr special too. She has gone out and bought him clothes, shoes and toys. now how many people you know would do that for a coworker? like i just had to take this moment to express how grateful i am for each and every blessing in our life.  thank you mom and dad for sending stuff for your grandchild, thank you cassidey for your kindness for my child. thank you to anyone that has ever helped us along the way, from the bottom of my heart, i appreciate you and i love you.  And thank you to whomever is reading my blog. I appreciate you too. 

bless

The company you keep

Someone once told me that everyone is in your life for a season and a reason, and the seasons are definitely changing. Since moving away from home, my friend count has been limited slim to none. Here recently a whole new set of people have been brought into my life, and its just crazy to see the difference between the "old friends" and "new friends." Don't get me wrong, new friends aren't better than old friends and old friends aren't better than new ones. But the new friends are a completely different type of people. And by different i mean dope. The company that you keep should be the type of company that you can learn, grow, and build with. That company should be the type that helps you develop yourself instead of bringing negative energy all the time. The new friends are just that type of people. Take for example, we (me, Nancy and Sarah) were at a liquor store trying to get change for door for Cphr Dvn release party, we each had one item and a 20$ bill. Of course the goal is to get as many ones as possible. The first problem when making our purchases was that the clerk didn't give the correct change back. when Sarah corrected the man, to me, it seemed like he got an attitude because he was corrected and then when he did give her the correct change he threw it at her on the counter. Now to me, when i have my hand out for you to put my change in and you put it on the counter, that irritates me. But when you throw it down like he did, that was just disrespectful. Keeping in mind that this man behind the counter was of a different background, and from what i know of his people, women are not on the same level as men. So in his mind he may have thought it was OK to do that, who knows he may put all females money on the counter instead of handing it to them. Now had i been with anyone else, the conversation when walking out would have been about how disrespectful that was and so on. But instead, it was about how nice it was for him to give us the change, and how thankful they were that he did. i was thinking about that and it made me realize that i am on a different wave length than the company i was in. I also realized upon conversing with Sr, that i tend to have a negative tone about alot of things. That's something i need to work on because the energy that you put out is going to be the energy the universe gives back, and if i continue on the negative path, then things will continue to be the way that they are now. So maybe with the new company that i have, i learn more, not only from them but about myself also. Here's to a new journey. 
p.e.a.c.e

shameless plugs

I was recently a part of a music video for a group here in louisville that i respect to the 10th power. upon seeing that video i realized that i am linked to alot of talented people. I know multiple people in the music industry, jewlery makers, master stylist, and photographers, just to name a few. So i thought id do a shameless plug post for those that i know that are doing their thing. 

First things first: My other blog.. i am married to a musician, and on my other blog i tell you what its like to be the Wife of a musician.. check it out

Music to my ears: As mentioned before i am  the wife of a musician. That up and coming artist is Romell wit 2lls you can go to his Soundcloud page, listen to the new music, get the free downloads and just bang out. There is also another group that i am close with, and that is CPHR DVN. I recently had a cameo in their latest music video called BeautifuLiar. Please check out both the facebook page and the video. 
If you are into the dub step revolution, you need to check out the magnificent duo of ANK. I personally know the K to the ANK duo, and not only are they some dope ass DJs, but Ive heard some really bad ass songs come from them.. check out the soundcloud page and get your dub step on!!

Keeping up with the latest fashion is my girl iGinaBee. She has been one of my closest friends, and she has  been through more than most. check out her facebook page (link above) and her professional page iginabee.com. Hook yourself up with some new accessories (some of which are customizable) read her stories and let her be an inspiration for those that are going through some trying situations.

You got the latest accessories and now you gotta have the fly do to match you need to check out my sister Faith Beverly. She is in the ATL area and the best stylist i know. You can check her website Faithbeverly.com to book appointments, get prices or read the praises for her services. I will be the first to tell you that if you want your hair done right, then this is where you need to be. Go to A Touch of Faith and get it done right! Check out the commercial by Major Mindz Media featuring my sister Faith Beverly. 

Well yall, thats enough of my shameless plug post, but be sure that you check each and everyone of my peoples out. If we dont support eachother, how will we ever be great? This will not be the last of my shameless plug post. Leave a message and let me know what you think of anyone mentioned above. Or if you need to find some one, i am almost certain i can find someone for you. 

P.e.a.c.e  

Cousin fun

This past weekend, we took a family trip to the yew dell gardens to go see the train exhibit and to explore this new place we've never been before. I heard on the news radio station that there was a train exhibit going on here, so i decided to round up the gang to go. And  by the gang, i mean team weaver, coco and Mikey. Mikey is Jr's little cousin by 4 months. When we go to the botanical gardens, we got to see the trains, Santa and walk the grounds to see what in the spring time, I'm sure is a very beautiful sight to see. The boys absolutely loved watching the trains. I knew this would be a good thing to go do, because there is at train set that is around the Christmas tree at Jr's day care and we have to stop and look at it every morning for at least 5 minutes.

 After looking at the trains, we went and saw Santa. Mikey ran straight up to Santa with no problems. Jr on the other hand was a little bit more of a struggle. After he saw Santa give Mikey a candy cane, that kinda helped coax him to go sit with Santa. This is actually the first picture i have of Jr with Santa, im glad he likes to take pictures.

 Once we got some candy from santa, we decided to just walk the grounds of the botanical gardens. I mean i did pay to get in here, so im about to get my monies worth. I am actually excited to go back during the spring to see all of the plants and flower in bloom. Good times with family, cant ask for more.

ok im going to be better.. for real this time

ok ok ok, i know my last post i said i was going to be better about my posting.. yeah.. that was 3 months ago. lol i know im bad. but here i am again.. back at it.

so i am also starting up another blog, this one is from the prospective of a musicians wife. my husband has been doing music for as long as ive known him, and here within the past 6 months, things have really started taking off for him. Hes been making alot of good connections, and getting to asked to play more shows. His  facebook page has been getting more likes, and his soundcloud is getting more plays and even has free downloads. if you are currently reading this, i want you to go to his soundcloud play a few tracks and post a comment on here and let me know what you think. please feel free to tell a friend about both of his pages and also my new blog as well.